Women's Dilemma

i do miss him, i do love him. alot.

if i have to make that sacrifice, you bet i would.

it is disappointing to know that he do still have a lil' bit of feeling

towards his ex (nur hidayah ariffin).

it is fucking disappointing to know that he is waiting for a 2nd chance to re-build their

relationship while having an affair with me, i guess ?

it is fuckingx1000 disappointing when i already knew the truth and he just act like nothing happen and could still lie.

it is fucking hurts me :'(

i guess words really could not describe how i actually felt.

that was written in malay, im sorry if readers out there could not understand.

this is fucking disappointing.

& this message was sent recently Tuesday, 2nd August 2011, 10.44pm.

i will sacrifice if i have to, im willing.

i just could not bear anymore to be played like this, to be played like a fool.

nobody will actually understand what kind of fucking situation i am going through right now.

sometimes i just feel like letting all go.

& i guess everyone will be happy, especially his family.

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PAINKILLA

im on my pain killer, so im gonna eat everything that i could. this is my only chance to eat without having so much pain.

i feel like eating Mc'Donald Pancake.

buy or not?

hmm.. feeling very2 hungry.

i am excited to go to school this monday.. new school, new classroom, new environment.

cool.

hahhaa.

**meet my fellow friends & classmate tu yg penting eh!

the timetable is so sucks lah.

why lah?

hmm..

everyone in my family is giving me a special attention. abg, kakak, my mum especially.

i love itt. haahah. (bile lagi mau dapat dok!)

abg bought TF for me, hopefully i will recover soon and do not have to go for surgery.

kakak too me out for a movie with Neelam, treat me alot of things, spoon-feed me in the public. how sweet.

mom never fails to cooked or get for me anything that i want.

**not forgetting Ryn, Dina & Nick too. for your special concern.

i am very happy today, this morning. i do not know why. haha. i just feel happy.

i could not understand you.

sometimes i feel regret that i went out with you.

boy, you are so confused.